You don't want to know about the things that go on inside my head

I've always had a lot of insecurities about my body and about being a woman myself. Maybe because I'm short or because I feel fat, or even because I don't have the boob size I want, but I guess I'm not the only one. There are plenty of young women feeling that way too, and that's not okay.

I've always felt watched, from top to bottom, by random men on the streets or simply from guys at school. Maybe it was all just inside my head but, when you dislike your own body, those kind of things happen. Your brain tends to create situations that are not exactly there in the first place.

There are days where I feel confident about myself, but most of the days I feel the most insecure person you could ever meet. It comes a lot from the society we live in. Everyday, we are targeted by standard and unrealistic sizes of skinny models and everytime we see one of those girls, all we do is to complain about ourselves. Anorexia. Bulimia. Self harm. These are just a few ways to end up the pain for a little while.

Even not totally accepting my body right now, I'm happy because I met the right guy, the one who makes me feel good about myself, and even sexy. I don't know how he can be so cheerful and positive about it [I guess I've always had a negative mind], but I'm thankfull for that.

«And they say that a hero could save us, I'm not gonna stand here and wait»

There are paths we don't want to take. Not because they are exhausting or difficult, just because we don't have enough courage to step foward and take that decision.

People look up for miracles when they need them the most. But when miracles fail, who's gonna fight for them? That's when heroes come in the scene. What do heroes do? Heroes fight monsters. And it doesn't matter what type of monsters they fight - monsters under our beds, monsters in our heads, monsters in our dreams - they will always be there, for us.

I've chosen the path of the heroes. Is it hard? Yes. Yes, it is. But I will always stand up for what I believe in. I will no longer allow injustice to win.

Who said heroes war capes? After all, heroes are people just like you and me. Although, what stands them out is their braveness, their ability to face the enemy and their capacity for helping others.

And they say 
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away 

 - Nickelback - Hero

Hell is where we live: the thoughts of a Portuguese student

We kill ourselves to study. We sacrifice leisure moments and funny times with our friends to study. For what? In order to see our grades going down. To see them falling two or more values ​​relatively to a grade avarage we strive to keep for three entire years. Now we are ready to kiss our dreams goodbye.

They evaluate us for two hours with the same "dignity" from which our teachers evaluate each one of us for two or three years. Yes, because we all had exams of Geography and Biology, or Portuguese and History, with complicated subjects. We had two weeks to study what we were taught about during those same years.

And, now we can admire all of those who plotted our lives, making us worry about exams and whether we can or not take the degree we want at a decent university. From the gentlemen of IAVE to the ones of the Ministry of Education, also passing by exams' brokers.

And we have to thank them, also, for giving us, from now on, less than a week to study for the second phase of the exams. Right after this, I will ask someone to put me in a mental hospital.

Besides everything, we continue to fight for a better world.

«They tried to cut my wings. I just flew away.»

Highway to Happiness

Happiness isn't based on desires; it is necessary for individuals to fight for their happiness. In other words, we must seek until we find it.

Otherwise, sometimes we worry too much about seeking for happiness that we forget that it is under our eyes. Being happy is hearing the first words of a child, receiving a love declaration or even relaxing by listening to the gentle sounds of nature.

Being happy is to have gratitude towards life and realizing that difficulties result in personal enrichment.

In one way or another, you may find what makes you deeply happy, or just might learn with your mistakes. It is up to you to find your own way of happiness.

♥ LOVE ♥

                                    amare ♥ love ♥ الحب ♥ amour ♥ liebe ♥ amor ♥ 사랑

Love.
Love keeps our hearts warm and appears unannounced.
It is an unconditional affection with no limits or conditions, no age or race, no nationality or culture.

You were the most sweet surprise I could ever wish for. When I say that I would be nothing without you, believe me, I'm telling the truth. You were my first love. The first boy I thought was beautiful. The boy I was afraid to talk to because I was too shy and I didn't want to mess things up.

With you, everything becomes easier. The world around us gets simpler. Reality changes. I feel free to express myself as who I really am. I can stop hiding all the thoughts I never told and all the feelings I have because I know that I can trust you.

Sometimes I'm too annoying. I keep telling you to take care. I keep worrying about you. I just want you to be alright, to be safe. It's just that... My heart breaks every time you're angry, sad or hurt. I suffer along with you. I also laugh with you. I would become a clown if I had to just to make you smile again. Gosh, you get more beautiful every time you smile. [You're beautiful anyway.]

There's so many things I want to tell you, but I can't find the right words for it. I guess actions are more truthful than words. Therefore, I hope my feelings are understood by the way I act, but also by the clumsy words I say. ☺

αγαπώ ♥ amare ♥ 爱 ♥ miłość ♥ люблю ♥ 愛 ♥ обичам