Disembosom

[Finally got the courage I needed to post this. When it comes to death, we never know how to react or what to say. After a year, I can finally speak.
It was an honor to have you by my side all these years. I'm sure I will never find anyone like you.
I can't even count on hand the years that we've been together. Since I found you abandoned and begged my mom to let me bring you home with us that I haven't been the same. Remembering the bites and the scratches you gave me keeps my heart warm. And makes me think of how much I miss that.
And, of course, I couldn't write this without tears falling off my face, but it's the least I can do for you, my dear.]

RIP 20.03.2015 ❤

弘怜 [Guren]

Don't let me go
I don't think I can do this on my own

Don't let me fall
Wounds won't heal without you, after all

So search for the red lotus
To make me pure again
To end all these problems
And to set me free of sin

Disappointment

It's awful when you feel played by someone you care about. It's like that person just cares for you when they need you. It feels like you've been fooled, but you just can't believe that yet.
You try to figure out what's wrong, and then you think "It's me. I'm wrong.". But your not. Believe me, your not wrong at all. The person who forgot about you is the one and only guilty.
From a moment to another, he/she stops noticing you. You've always been there for them, but they simply forgot about you. After that, they talk to you like nothing happened.
It's tiring. Exhausting. Selfish.