Despair ≠ Hope

Despair

(n)
1. loss of hope; hopelessness.
2. someone or something that causes hopelessness:
He is the despair of his mother.

Despair. The only thing that can fight hope.
It's hard when you can't even control yourself. You begin to fade... Ceasing to be myself because you're so blind, so sick, so desperate. Also, you're so lonely... But many people feel just like you.
I don't think there's any chances these scars will disappear. They're printed in my souls, they won't come out. Maybe it's better this way.


Hope

(n)
1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best:
to give up hope.
2. a particular instance of this feeling:
the hope of winning.
3. grounds for this feeling in a particular instance:
There is little or no hope of his recovery.
4. a person or thing in which expectations are centered:
The medicine was her last hope.
5. something that is hoped for:
Her forgiveness is my constant hope.

Hope. The only thing that can fight despair.
Hope keeps us together, searching for our goals. It gives us strength to look forward, to face our destiny.
I'll never forget what helped me fighting my enemies. Hope. When there's hope, there's everything. You might have to let some things behind, but maybe it's better this way.

I can't think straight right now

I can't think straight right now.
I feel the world collapsing around me.
I have no where to go.
No where to be.
No where to feel safe.

I can't think straight right now.
Because the weight of the world is on my shoulders and I don't know what to do.
I'm not ready to fight.
I'm not ready to fall and fail again.
I'm not ready.
I'm just... Not ready.

I can't think straight right now.
Because everything I do seems to be wrong.
Every single thing is wrong.
It's not my fault.
I try. I try very hard.
I just...

I can't think straight right now.
I feel the world collapsing around me.
I don't have strength to stand up.
Oh God, please have mercy for this poor soul.
Guide me home.