Saturday, April 23, 2016

The stars in the sky when there's no moon to shine ♥

One year. I can't believe it's been so long.
A year next to the person I love the most.
I still feel the chills and the butterflies in the stomach whenever I see him.
No words can describe what I feel.
By his side, everything becomes easier.
My fears disappear.
I become more spontaneous and happy as I never felt before.
By his side, everything becomes brighter..
He's my world.
Gorgeous. Honest. Unique. Special.
My shinning star.
He's the Yang to my Yin. ♥

Friday, April 8, 2016

Existential Anguish

I feel useless. But no one cares. No one did. No one will.
What am I doing here? Nothing. I'm just wasting other people's time.
What's my purpose? None. I have no purpose.
Who am I trying to fool? Only me, apparently.
I'm just an empty soul like many others. An empty soul in an empty body.
I have no goals. I have no dreams. I have no future.
I feel lonely but I'm not alone. I have this little demon inside my head that keeps telling me what to do.
My thoughts are too loud. I want to, but I can't turn them off. It's not that easy.
I feel broken. Broken in a way that I can not be fixed again.
It breaks me into pieces when I have to sacrifice something. I'm not a bad person. I just... I just...

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I see things. I see things other people will never see. It scares me, sometimes.
People are too blind. Blind with themselves.
Can you imagine?
I never keep my thoughts straight. I guess I've always been distracted.
Distracted about life itself. About me. About others.
Why are my eyes sweating? Why they keep doing this?
Maybe they have their own lives. Maybe they are trying to tell me something.
To be fine. To be safe. To fight.
That's what I'll do.
But... Who am I, anyway?