Wild Sense of Soul

It's difficult to make a difference, especially when you're a small drop in the ocean. Small, very small. I'm that "drop in the ocean": one as many others, trying to make something different and create something new.

I try to be strong. That's what I'm known of. But sometimes it's hard. I want to help other people. I need to be strong to protect them. [That's how I see myself.]

I always act very rational, that's why I'm able to help everyone around me. The problem gets big when I forget that I'm a human being and I that have my own feelings. When something bad happens to me, I feel like someone threw a rock at my stomach, I feel like I have a knot at my throat. And I hate to be this fragile... But sometimes it's good to be helped. [It's okay, it happens to everyone.]

Why am I "sweating from my eyes"? Because, I held on for too long, that I forgot how it felt to cry, to be sad, to fake a smile. Now, tears fall off my eyes without a single effort. I don't stop it; it's the only way I can feel better. Also, it "cleans my soul".

Naivety

People are never who we think they are. They'll leave you when they don't need you anymore. They will ignore you, eventhought you did nothing to deserve it. They will forget about you when you need them the most. And, the funniest part of all, they'll beg you for help after what they did to you.

I feel blind for all these years. I thought they were something but, in the end, they got the opportunity to reveal themselves [it doesn't even matter].

I want to cry, but I can't. I feel like my heart is being pushed even futher inside my body. [I'm losing everyone].

Now I understand how childish they are. It was always in front of me, but I wasn't able to see it. I guess it was just a matter of time.

«And I think to myself... What a wonderful world»

I want to travel.
Tokyo, London, New York.
I want to explore. To get lost. To be found.

Life is a crazy journey; a ride without destination. It's full of steps, hopes and dreams.

[credits to Tumblr]

I want to see the world with my own eyes. I want to be in contact with different cultures and new people. I want to learn about other ways of living.

Travelling is the best way you have to find yourself. You will surely get smarter than if you were closed inside a classroom. Don't be afraid of what's on the other side of the ocean. There are plenty of adventures waiting for you.☺☻

Make a change

I can't do anything. I can't think clearly. I'm tired, exhausted, stressed. Only he can be my escape.

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Reality isn't that good for human kind. We live in a fucked up world, divided by religions, politicians and beliefs. We can no longer live in harmony. We can't even express ourselves... How will we save this cursed world?

I clean my eyes as the tears fall down my face. Is this the world I want to live in? Is this the legacy I want to leave to our future generations? Future doesn't seem bright. Actually, future never looked darker. There is no light at the end of the tunel. No chances. No solutions. Not even a miracle can save us.

I should be doing something for the world, but instead I'm writing this. [Useless] I guess I've always been good with words, not with actions. But you can't live in its shadow forever. You need to fight. You need to do something. Even if you don't have confidence in yourself, do it; don't think twice. Don't get stuck at "what if's".

Life may be hard sometimes. Nobody said it was easy.

Hope

Hope.
That's what keeps us moving.
That's what keeps us thinking, searching and exploring.

Hope is what keeps people together in difficult times.
It gives us strength to look forward, to face our destiny.
It helps us planning our future.

You might feel "down" sometimes but, when there's hope, there's everything.
Hope is the reason.
Hope is the way.
Hope is the answer.

Hope gives you a new chance to change your life, to follow your dreams, to fight for what you believe in.

Hope moves the masses.

Four letters, one word: HOPE.

The stars in the sky when there's no moon to shine ♥

One year. I can't believe it's been so long.
A year next to the person I love the most.
I still feel the chills and the butterflies in the stomach whenever I see him.
No words can describe what I feel.
By his side, everything becomes easier.
My fears disappear.
I become more spontaneous and happy as I never felt before.
By his side, everything becomes brighter..
He's my world.
Gorgeous. Honest. Unique. Special.
My shinning star.
He's the Yang to my Yin. ♥

Existential Anguish

I feel useless. But no one cares. No one did. No one will.
What am I doing here? Nothing. I'm just wasting other people's time.
What's my purpose? None. I have no purpose.
Who am I trying to fool? Only me, apparently.
I'm just an empty soul like many others. An empty soul in an empty body.
I have no goals. I have no dreams. I have no future.
I feel lonely but I'm not alone. I have this little demon inside my head that keeps telling me what to do.
My thoughts are too loud. I want to, but I can't turn them off. It's not that easy.
I feel broken. Broken in a way that I can not be fixed again.
It breaks me into pieces when I have to sacrifice something. I'm not a bad person. I just... I just...

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I see things. I see things other people will never see. It scares me, sometimes.
People are too blind. Blind with themselves.
Can you imagine?
I never keep my thoughts straight. I guess I've always been distracted.
Distracted about life itself. About me. About others.
Why are my eyes sweating? Why they keep doing this?
Maybe they have their own lives. Maybe they are trying to tell me something.
To be fine. To be safe. To fight.
That's what I'll do.
But... Who am I, anyway?